We’ll title this post “Things I Learned From The Legend of Korra”….
So i was with one of my good guy friends today and all we did all day was basically watch the Legend of Korra and eat. Very productive! (haha i love that show)
But it was the episode where Korra is all super in love with Mako and she’s like “I KNOW YOU LIKE ME!” and he’s a butthead about it, even though he does like her. So after they kiss and stuff she’s like “I know this is messy, but lets at least stay friends while we figure this out.”
And it hit me.
Things with jacob are messy. As messy as can get. But isn’t the reason i liked him in the frst place because we were friends?
So I’m just going to calm my tits and make sure we stay friends. We’ll probably never figur this out, but it just makes sense all of a sudden.
ok.
You’re probably reading this post like “Woah cool story bro, tell it at parties”
but really I’m seeing a different side.
ok bye.
seriously you don’t have to read this. I’m just upset.
So after 2 and a half weeks, of not talking, jacob texts me.
And for those 2 weeks, Im sitting there like “Im gonna yell at him and this and that” and then when he does, he starts talking about Disney and that’s like my weakness. And he’s like “Just because I havent talked to you recently doesn’t mean I don’t think about you”. psh. what a line.
But I tell him Im annoyed, and it starts this big ol conversation and he’s like “you’re 20, why are you so dramatic about this shit” and hes like “I think that you THINK you like me more than you actually do.”
and then, me being all stupid, just open up and have a huge word vomit text and Im telling him maybe I just like theidea of him, and then Im saying shit like “but im scared, because theres only one of you in the whole world” and how i can’t have him and how I think about him too much and maybe im not mad at him, but mad that I like him, and how he just has to be understandging with me, and that Im just thinking too much.
and he’s just like…this is why i never tell you how I feel because I wanted to avoide this, but you make it happen anyways.
And thats it.
And I feel stupid and vulnerable and dumb like a 10 year old, and I cried because I cry every time we talk because I just have so many DAMN FUCKING FEELINGS about this boy that I’ve never even met.
What’s wrong with me.
I don’t understand.
If you like me, you have a really shitty way of showing it. And if you don’t like me, you have a really shitty way of showing it.
distorted-monsters:
i hate you for ignoring me, i hate you for making me feel like you hate me, i hate you for leaving me, i hate you for tricking me into believing there was a part of you that cared, i hate you for how you make me feel, i hate you for doing this. i hate you, i hate you, i hate you.
but i think i fucking love you.
this. fucking.shit.
(via drinkmewhileimcold15)
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